What do you do?

what do you do when pain overwhelms you?
when you feel like you cant breathe?
when the world presses down on your shoulders and you cant bear it?
What about when the person you love the most hurts you?
when they break your heart and you cant take it?
when you want to punch something or cry your eyes out or...just die?
when it feels like your hearts been ripped out and stomped on...
and you feel alone and the only person you want to talk to is infact the one that made you hurt so bad?
when a trust is broken and you feel like the whole world is wrong?
i cant take it...i cant take this pain...it hurts sooo bad...

disconnect

It's hard to explain...when friends drift away...when time steals all those memories and rips you apart. You grow up and go your different ways. Everything is just awkward...you know what I mean? Part of you wants that friendship to stay...but the other part of you knows that its not going to. Maybe its what happened right before you started drifting away...or maybe its all kinds of things stacked up into a mountain that you cant even climb...not even for one second can you see yourself being good friends with this person any longer...because people change...they grow apart...its a part of life that we as people go through all the time. Theres no anger or hate or sadness in what I am writing. The only thing there is is understanding. We've grown apart. Things have changed. I've learned that. Time has a funny way of doing that. It has a funny way of making things seem...faded and vague. I've actually gone through this time and time again...and I cry for awhile...then I wonder about it...And then finally I accept it...I give up. Part of me doesnt want to and other knows its gotta give. I've known this was coming for awhile...Well I've given in...You know that new friends change that too? They seem to understand you better...I dont know...what it is...but we have drifted apart...and we cant change that...Ive finally accepted it...and Im really sorry...but you should too...Im really sorry...

lyrics...maybe there good maybe not...

if the world came crashing down on me
you would there to catch me
and i look up into the stars
and realize they shine cause of you

you are the sunshine in my life
you are the missing peice in my puzzle
you complete me in everything you do
im so glad i have a friend like you
a friend like you...

i was devastated you came to my door
how could i ask for more?
you will be by side forever
you enchant my life with your smile

you are the sunshine in my life
you are the missing piece to my puzzle
you complete me in everything you do
im so glad i have a friend like you
a friend like you..

what can i say?
i guess im in love
i cant wait to see your smiling face at school
oh yea i cant get you out of my head
im in love with you...oh yea
im love in love with you.

dedicated to wkm

IM crying yes im crying

I have no idea whats going on in my life anymore...its so dumb that i have to hear everything from your uncle...your my best friend...if i didnt respond to a text that means i didnt get it...i have no other way to explain. I built up this wall because i never heard from you...and now im sooo bitter about it all...I have no idea how to explain it. This may be making you cry...but I've been crying, for a long time...and it sucks...i go to cheyenne and my guy best friend became my guy best friend two weeks after i met him... two weeks...and we talk everyday...but i barely hear from you ever anymore...and then i get this text that was demanding of me...that i had to go to a game i wasnt allowed to even go to! but it was sooo frustrating for me...because i wanted to..but my dad had surgery and my grandma died. then you call me and it was just awkward...i have no idea where to go from there...its just strange...just strange

New friends...old friends

You know how when you move somewhere...even schools...things change? It seems that people grow apart and forget eachother...were not important any more because were not there everyday...and then when you finally realize that maybe you should make contact with them. Theyre busy with new friends. I know because I've been through it recently. I want to see all my old friends. However...some of them dont want to see me. I can't wait for the day I see the ones that do care the ones that mean something. My best friends, and all the others. Some I havnt even talked to...but its okayy because I hope that once they see me they will be happy. My new friends are amazing...including my new best friend...when he heard about my grandma passing away he actually came to my house to talk to me. How AWESOME is that? It's pretty awesome...I'm glad for all my friends. I have several BEST friends, and several normal friends. Some new and some old...but either way they are all VERY dear to me...and will always have a place in my heart...because thats how much i love them.

My Grandma

So today was really long...my dad had surgery and my grandma hatch died. She was a good person. She was always very giving and she never was selfish. She was my favorite grandma...i remember that every christmas she would give us something...mostly money. I will definatly miss her. but my dad is more broken up than anything. he cant go to the funeral because of his surgery. so keep in your prayers please...and thanks...RIP grandma hatch