Sunday, October 3, 2010

One Day...

Someday someone will walk into my life that will make me realize why nothing else worked out...

I cant wait for that day.
I cant wait for the day that he comes.
I'm terrified it wont.
I think of the "relationships" I've had.
I just dont know what's going on.
One second theyre totally into me and I'm happy.
The next they ignore me and I mean nothing to them.
My mother supposes that once I meet this guy Steven I'll be "in love"
I dont know why she thinks that.
She says he's six years older than me and a return missionary.
It wont hurt to meet him, but I'm not getting my hopes up.
Gah for someone like me to believe in love is almost impossible.
It doesnt matter what you say it wont help me.
There has to be something extremely wrong with me for no one to fall for me.
I try and try to just be myself.
I cant even take it.
It seems like all guys want is a beautiful girl with an amazing personality.
I dont think I'm either.
Someday my prince will come?
Maybe...but then again maybe not...


I'm so lost...