It's funny

I believe that a true friendship is a true friendship when...
1. you get mad at eachother for stupid pranks and then wake up the next morning and act as if
nothing ever happened.
2. you know deep down that you truly love them like family
3. you look at them and you feel like you have known them forever
4. you could never hate them in any way
5. the only time they make you cry is when your laughing really hard
6. you miss them even though they were there just a few seconds ago
7. you never never never want to say goodby to them
8. you want to know them forever
9. you talk to them EVERYDAY!!!
10. when they feel the same way about you as you do them

what i said yesterday....

This is an official take back of what i said yesterday...
everything is fine and dandy...
I'm truly happy today!!!
It's amazing!!! I woke up and smiled and was just happy!
i thought im going to be really happy today!!!
It's a good day...and it was right from the start when i opened my eyes!!
AMAZING!!!!
Well thats about it!!!
AMAZING!!! <3

What do you do?

what do you do when pain overwhelms you?
when you feel like you cant breathe?
when the world presses down on your shoulders and you cant bear it?
What about when the person you love the most hurts you?
when they break your heart and you cant take it?
when you want to punch something or cry your eyes out or...just die?
when it feels like your hearts been ripped out and stomped on...
and you feel alone and the only person you want to talk to is infact the one that made you hurt so bad?
when a trust is broken and you feel like the whole world is wrong?
i cant take it...i cant take this pain...it hurts sooo bad...

disconnect

It's hard to explain...when friends drift away...when time steals all those memories and rips you apart. You grow up and go your different ways. Everything is just awkward...you know what I mean? Part of you wants that friendship to stay...but the other part of you knows that its not going to. Maybe its what happened right before you started drifting away...or maybe its all kinds of things stacked up into a mountain that you cant even climb...not even for one second can you see yourself being good friends with this person any longer...because people change...they grow apart...its a part of life that we as people go through all the time. Theres no anger or hate or sadness in what I am writing. The only thing there is is understanding. We've grown apart. Things have changed. I've learned that. Time has a funny way of doing that. It has a funny way of making things seem...faded and vague. I've actually gone through this time and time again...and I cry for awhile...then I wonder about it...And then finally I accept it...I give up. Part of me doesnt want to and other knows its gotta give. I've known this was coming for awhile...Well I've given in...You know that new friends change that too? They seem to understand you better...I dont know...what it is...but we have drifted apart...and we cant change that...Ive finally accepted it...and Im really sorry...but you should too...Im really sorry...

lyrics...maybe there good maybe not...

if the world came crashing down on me
you would there to catch me
and i look up into the stars
and realize they shine cause of you

you are the sunshine in my life
you are the missing peice in my puzzle
you complete me in everything you do
im so glad i have a friend like you
a friend like you...

i was devastated you came to my door
how could i ask for more?
you will be by side forever
you enchant my life with your smile

you are the sunshine in my life
you are the missing piece to my puzzle
you complete me in everything you do
im so glad i have a friend like you
a friend like you..

what can i say?
i guess im in love
i cant wait to see your smiling face at school
oh yea i cant get you out of my head
im in love with you...oh yea
im love in love with you.

dedicated to wkm

IM crying yes im crying

I have no idea whats going on in my life anymore...its so dumb that i have to hear everything from your uncle...your my best friend...if i didnt respond to a text that means i didnt get it...i have no other way to explain. I built up this wall because i never heard from you...and now im sooo bitter about it all...I have no idea how to explain it. This may be making you cry...but I've been crying, for a long time...and it sucks...i go to cheyenne and my guy best friend became my guy best friend two weeks after i met him... two weeks...and we talk everyday...but i barely hear from you ever anymore...and then i get this text that was demanding of me...that i had to go to a game i wasnt allowed to even go to! but it was sooo frustrating for me...because i wanted to..but my dad had surgery and my grandma died. then you call me and it was just awkward...i have no idea where to go from there...its just strange...just strange

New friends...old friends

You know how when you move somewhere...even schools...things change? It seems that people grow apart and forget eachother...were not important any more because were not there everyday...and then when you finally realize that maybe you should make contact with them. Theyre busy with new friends. I know because I've been through it recently. I want to see all my old friends. However...some of them dont want to see me. I can't wait for the day I see the ones that do care the ones that mean something. My best friends, and all the others. Some I havnt even talked to...but its okayy because I hope that once they see me they will be happy. My new friends are amazing...including my new best friend...when he heard about my grandma passing away he actually came to my house to talk to me. How AWESOME is that? It's pretty awesome...I'm glad for all my friends. I have several BEST friends, and several normal friends. Some new and some old...but either way they are all VERY dear to me...and will always have a place in my heart...because thats how much i love them.

My Grandma

So today was really long...my dad had surgery and my grandma hatch died. She was a good person. She was always very giving and she never was selfish. She was my favorite grandma...i remember that every christmas she would give us something...mostly money. I will definatly miss her. but my dad is more broken up than anything. he cant go to the funeral because of his surgery. so keep in your prayers please...and thanks...RIP grandma hatch

Tragic Love

It was but a tragic day
when the two lovers ran away
but thats not the tragedy
for it was far worse you see

the lovers were caught
then were hung for dead
and to others is taught
if youre going to run away dont get caught

the lovers were buried side by side
as the onlookers just cried and cried
the rain poured heavily that day
as the mourners walked away

From then on there was silence in in the town
whenever two lovers decided to run
some cheered them on to get away safe
others chased them in total rage

sometimes they were caught
sometimes they got away
but this story taught one thing...
if your going to fall in love be prepared for the sting

and yet he still loves someone else

so i fell in love
but he loved someone else
i helped him tell her
she turned him down
i helped him through the pain
he became my best friend
i still love him
and yet he loves someone else...

my new best friends...and my old best friends..are ALL my best friends

i have new best friends...
i have old best friends...
they are all my best friends
just the same
my new friends take care of me now
my old ones took care of me then
but they all take care of me still
just the same
i feel as though ive known them forever
i feel as though i havent known them long
but i still wish to know them
just the same... ;]

unlucky in love

I love him more than time could tell
he loves her so much i want to yell
he gives me reason to wake up every day
yet he always unknowingly turns my love away
when im down and out crying
hes the one making happy...or at least trying
i love him more thatn time could tell
however he loves her more
and i feel i could yell

ahhhhhh!!!!!!

so today was interesting... i didnt go to church but i did go give my talk. then i worked on hw and watche part of the base ball game... then i went of fb and had a crazy convo with my friends...so yea today was interesting

the eternal circle of friendship!!!

AWWW you have no idea how much i love these guys!!! THEY ARE SOOOO AWESOME!!! my best guy friends in the entire world!!! SO much fun with these guys. We tell each other everything and we help out with problems... I could never be mad at these two...EVER!!! The best thing about it is I only just met them. Which is awesome that were such good friends already... so a tribute to the eternal circle of friendship!!! LOVE YOU LIKE TIGGER LOVES POOH!!!

Hmm?

Well i have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I'm basicailly summing up my high school life... Part of me wishes I had gone to cheyenne all along. I mean that. The other part of me still loves everyone at Rancho. I miss them like crazy bad... I wish i could get thier hugs and hellos again... I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!!! I'm also excepted at Cheyenne so I don't feel out of place... it's like a 3rd home for me. I love it I'm glad that I can be so excepted after such a short time. It's an amazing feeling. I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO!!! any ways thats all for now, thanks for listening
LOVE YOU!!!

FUN DAY!!!

Today was tottaly and completely fun!! I definatley want to go again!!! lol its all summed up i saran wrap. post it notes, silly string, and aluminum foil!!! lol what a crack up!!! well i hope we can do this again sometime...lol!!

Feeling....LOVED

Wow... I never thought that I would be sooo excepted!!! I mean EVERYONE talks to me and treats me like I'm a real person. I used to feel so ignored and lonely... especially in theater. Now that I've joined this new one... I've never been so happy...:] It's so amazzzing!!! I never want to leave EVER!!! Come at the end of this year I'll cry my eyes out...I love it that much. Of course MY BESTIE never ignored me and I miss her like CRAZY!!! I love it sooo much I wish she could come here to this new school with me!!! We would have the best fun!!! So I've moved on and its not that sad anymore... I miss all my rancho people like crazy too... All those hugs I used to get!! I used to walk into school and a get like tons of hugs!!! I wierd to go a day without getting a hug!!! Well anyways I just wanted to say that I'm not MISERABLE any more!!! Of course when I get permission I will tottally go over there and visit!!! Too excited for that!!! ANYWAYS!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

My senior life as i know it...

So now here it is... i'm a Senior in high school!!! IDK if its good or bad! I get out of school at noon so thats amazing!!! I'm taking two AP classes. i just auditioned for the play... thats all good. Wonder if ill get a part? i also get my drivers liscence before tooooo long and i should go find a job... Life is moving on!!!! Its kinda scary!!!!

so?... so what? I can't even believe that you could even do that to me. You went behind my back and ruined my life! I can't even understand it. I thought you loved me. Here I was believing it all and then you just came along and ruined it. Whatever its sooo over! And now im finally free from you. For years I thought that you were the perfect guy for me. Now I see that all I am to you is your second choice. Im not going to take a backseat to your life. Im not going be some rebound girl. It's so far from over... I hope you have a good life. bye

Visit to the Family friend

So just recently I took a vacation to colorado. We went camping and now were visiting our family friends. Its kinda wierd cus thier oldest son has or at least had a crush on me. I thought the whole time driving up here what am I gonna do? This kid likes me but I dont like him back? Well turns out hes a pretty neat guy and I'm kinda falling for him...AUGH. WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO!!! Plus it seems as though one of his younger siblings has a crush on me too... We'll see how it all works out.

fly with me

why the profile name change? because this song inspires me...i really love it.Its amazing. yes its by the jonas brothers there music is amazing and fly with me is not only inspiring but its also in the movie Night at the Museum 2. Anyways just look it up

Everything you said to me

Get out right now
I can’t stand the lies
I believed one too many times
I wanna see you running out that door
Don’t wanna hear you speak once more
(Chorus)
All the lies that you spread
All the things that you said
I believed in you and me.
My broken heart feels dead
After all that you said…
All lies I believed things I thought I could see.

Can’t believe that’s its over
Your love was tantalizing
But all along you were lying
Something you used as a ploy
To use my heart as a toy
Now it’s over and I wanna see you leaving
Don’t ever come back
(Chorus)

And now im standing here in the rain
Watching you leave
The tears falling from my face
I realize everything you said to me
Was all a lie and now
I’m glad to see you leaving…

fireflies and butterflies
dancing in the twilight
celebrating a new day
going thier own way
why cant we see life
the way they do...
and be greatful for each new breath

in something called love

I'm drowning in something they call love
falling deeper into it.
Struggling to get free.
At the same time wanting to stay put.
I'm Drowning in something they call love.
only person can save me...
the person drowning at my side.
but right now i cannot see him
im waiting patiently.
there not much time
but ill hold on
forever and eternity...

i dont why

i dont get why im light headed
when you smile at me
i dont get why my heart soars
when you look at me
i dont get why my stomache flutters
when you call my name
or why i feel so lame...
its something more than just a crush
youre perfect...
theres only so many ways you can say it
I LOVE YOU!
but why i cant i say it to your face?
Why cant i find out if you truly love me too?
I dont know why...

School is almost out...

I can't believe it!School is actually almost over!!! I'm So excited!! i hate school. Hooray for no more school. Yay! i cant believe im almost a senior! thats insane!!!Its gone by so fast!! sosososo fast.

Its Complicated

yes it is...
complicated...
what does that word mean anyway?
that everythings twisted up and strange?
that i cant work it out in my head?
that i feel frustrated?
yes all of the above.
but i like him... and hes
younger by two years.
but he is so amazing...
Wonderful
sweet
beautiful...
if only he would look at me the
same way i look at him...
Its complicated

could you just

could you just
listen up
and take a chance
give me a moment
to speak my mind
you dont have
to do what i say
just listen up
for a change

One last Glance

Falling in love
cant get enough
but you like her.
and she hates you.
i could be there for you
i could take care of you.
Just look this way
give me the chance
the time of day
and pay one last glance.
towards me...

Amazing

well i wish he liked me...
but i like him...
hes in theater with me...
we are in two one acts together...
he plays guitar and sings...
he is two years younger...
he has got the sweetest smile...
plus he so talanted...
so so so talanted.
so very talanted...
i wish i had the guts to tell him.

i love you...

I really love you
though you drive me insane...
i really love you
and ill never be the same...
I really love you
and i wish youd notice me...
I really love you
but how could our love ever be...

I
I L
I LO
I LOV
I LOVE
I LOVE H
I LOVE HI
I LOVE HIM

suppose

suppose i told him
what would he say?
would he feel the same?
thats the thing i dont know...
and sometimes i wish i did.
If i could tell him it would be easier.
but im scared of a broken heart...
scared of what will happen next.
but if i could only face my fears...
and conquer all this fear...
i could tell him and he would know...
but if he liked me that would be great.
but if he didnt what would i do.
ill never know because ill never tell...

sigh...

I really like him
he likes her.
i really like him
he follows her.
I really like him
hes blind to it.
I really like him
and he doesnt know.

ORANGE

okay so oranges are my favorite fruit!!!
I'snt that cool?
orange is both a color and a fruit!
Now i think thats cool LOL
so fav colors are as follows...
#1 is blue and it always will be
#2 is green
#3 is purple
#4 is orange because its awesome!!!
So yeah that was why i talked about orange so much.
HAHAHA...

soup

i would like some tomato soup... yummy warm tomato soup.

...

stupidly hopelessly in love

today

today im feeling a lil better... but just a lil

SICK

today i am sick... and it sucks..... and i hate it....>:(

Falling

Cant
hold
on
Im slipping now...
Falling from this earth.
In too much pain
it wasnt enough to mend the lies
sewn into my heart.
or stop the tears falling from my face
and falling from this plaace.

what i gave

I gave you everything...
you threw it in my face.
I forgave you...
you threw me out of place.
I pleaded with you..
you only struck me down.
I tried to make you happy...
you only frowned.
I told that I LOVE YOU...
and finally things had changed.
And after all this waiting
and after all this want
I say three simple little words...
you said I LOVE YOU TOO.

after

After giving you my heart, you tore it up in pieces and left it on the floor. Then asked for more. So why didnt you understand when i tore your heart out of your chest and tore it up in pieces too?

BAND AID

Not even all the band-aides in the entire world could fix what youve done to my heart.

shattered

shattered heart stepping on broken lies
helpless love in your eyes
powerless and weak is all ill ever be

so i like him

okay so i liked this guy but i found out he liked someone else... so i stopped liking him and now were hanging out a lot more and i like him... and i wonder if he likes me... plus hes a freshman. oh how i hate emotions and they screw life up sometimes... tear...

sunday night

wow its another one of those sunday nights i just dont want to end...theres school tomorrow and i hate school... so yeah... but i guess the good part about is my friends and lunch time...

Confusion

So I really like him
but im kinda confused.
wether or not he likes me
i wish i knew.
i wish i could read his mind
but im not able to.
hope i can figure this out
because i know he cant.

Sedona, Arizona

so i went to sedona this week and it was amazing!!! I absoulutly love sedona and i want to go back sooooooo bad!!! you dont even know how pretty and nice it is there!!! i even got a lil darker!!! oh yeah tan!!! LOL so yeah thats whats up with me lately!!! I so do not want to go back to school. :( it will suck but its all good. im so excited for summer

New Post

hey everyone its me!!! well i havnt been on in a while but here I am. so the update...well theres nothing really. i went to Idaho for a few days and it was cold. During spring break im going out of town so thats fun... yup thats about it so bye

no really

I wouldn't say I'm in love because I dont know... what it feels like. So, i couldnt say so right?

feeling kind of down today

I'm feeling kind of down today

im depressed

in a mess.

I'm feeling kind horrible today

angry at

the world.

I'm feeling kind of sad today

wanting to

see your face.

I'm feeling kind of sleepy today

your laugh

will make me glad.

I'm feeling kind of glad today.

I get to see you

and your smiling face.

no no no no ...

I wont say Im in love...

i met him yesterday...(metaphorically of course)

I met him yesterday
and then I fell in love.
Do you believe in love at first sight?
I do now.
I love to hug him
and make him smile...
especially to make him laugh.
I just barely met him
but hes so perfect already...
Hes not like other guys
where you wish they would just SHUT UP.
In fact he is kind of shy...
and its perfectly adorable!!!
I only met him yesterday...
and I think I'm falling in love.

you can say what you want...

you can say what you want about me
i dont care!
theres only one thing that i will be
and that is me!
you can laugh at me you can cuss at me
it wont destroy me
because i have one thing that you dont have...
dignity
no matter what i will stand up against the crowd
i will become someone that i want to become.
you can try and take me down but i wont fall
you can say what you want...
but youll fail at demolishing me every time

so...

so theres this new kid at my school. hes younger than me but hes really mature and really sweet!!!! both me and my best friend would date him if we had the chance...he is EXTREMELY mature for his age i mean really you meet him and your like wow!!!! so yes i like him kind of sort of maybe alot.... its funny cause i only just met him. PLUS finding a boy that is as mature as him at that age is REALLY hard. so yea thats my 101

CHILLAXIN

so im at my bffs hpuse and im chilaxin out maxin realaxin all cool...

BOREDDOM

im like hecka bored!!!!!!!! so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sos so so so so sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bored!!!! i had to take the math proficiency yesterday which sucks cus i HATE MATH!!!! idk what to do to get rid of this stupid dumb boredom!!!augh!!!!!

BLAH

todays an ok day...im like really really really sleepy and i just want to go home and sleep.... but unfortunatly im at school. blech i hate school. im in the library because my teacher is testing students in our classroom so we were not allowed in there. of course that sent us on this crazy run all over the school to figure out where the heck we were supposed to go... we ended up here! Go figure! so thats what happened....

what missing you did

i missed you once
i miss you still
i always have
i always will.
never realizing that you
are poisening
like a drug
i cant get enough of
setting me on all time high.
all i can think is why?
what did missing you do?
make me Love you?
Feelings i never felt before, spilling out more and more
taking me away driving me insane
carrying someone ive never been,
out here lost and on my own.
drowning in what missing you did...

read and just understand me...

its not the flirting...
i dont want drama... go ahead and flirt
i dont care...
I HANG OUT WITH YOU BECAUSE YOUR LIKE THE SISTER I NEVER HAD!!!!
there now you know...
so i also have to tell you this.
when you have a boyfriend i dont exsist. i guess you could call it being put on the back burner... its him you want to spend all your time with. if he wont do something that i want to do you dont do it. i feel ...left out. For you its easy getting a boyfriend. i have to try harder than you. ive never had a boyfriend in my life! its hard to see you go through so many and that so many have hurt you the way they have... then there you go right back on the flirting train... i just cant understand sometimes. i dont want to lose you i want be a old grandma swinging on my porch step with my best friend at my side laughing and talking about when we were young whippersnappers... i wont a let a boy tear us apart. i dont like seeing you get hurt guy after guy after guy... so i guess its not the flirting its the not taking time to think about it... to see wether or not hes the right one! and the one who wrote you the letter? i think hes perfect for you... when he said date while hes gone he didnt mean go get a boyfriend he meant go out on dates hang out with guys have fun! just in case you guys figure out your not perfect for eachother you both have new directions to go. so you dont feel like youve been waiting all this time to get your heart broken. hes an amazing guy and if i had soeone like him... well thats who i would choose.

I LOVE YOU SIS!

you dont have to forgive me... im a mean horrible person and i dont deserve friends

sorry. sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry. sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.sorry.

I AM A MEAN PERSON!!! SOWY i really am...

was i mean to my best friend? yes and i am truly sorry... i wasnt thinking...plus i was having a realy bad day. i mean really bad. i couldnt say it because i didnt want to explain it a thousand times over. I was missing certain ppl alot that day i mean alot... i was really depresed and i was on my last nerve. the truth is i was saying things about everyone.. i shouldnt have... I am really really really sorry to anyone i have hurt... it wasnt right for me to say that. i have no excuse none what so ever... once again sorry. oh and i know that sorry sometimes just doesnt work...but i am truly and sincerly and most terribly sorry... well thanks for reading

i have this rage

im sick of wiating for you
im sick of constantly wondering wether or not your mind is in the right place
i was so hurt
now all i can do is think of the wrongs you did
everyday is so painful
you say youll come and you dont..
i wait forever all alone
standing there byself looking like and idiot to everyone
why do i constantly have to feel this pain?
why do i have to go through this?
why do i have to feel alone when your with him?
its always about him and he wants to do...
its never me
Why cant it be me/
am i not enough?
i only know your deepest darkest secrets... but what is that?
what does that mean?
what ever happened to me being the your go to person?
i guess im not all that important.
just a person to talk to
hes always more important than me ALWAYS

the definition...

The definition of everything is so vague.
a best friend is supposed to be some one who stands by you no mattter what and sticks by all your life..
Why havent I ever truly felt that?
love is supposed to be this connection between two people that is sweet and breath taking
Why do i feel but he doesnt?
life is supposed to be about fulfilling your dreams and becoming who you really are
Why am i constantly letting my dreams be torn to shreds by everyone?
happiness is supposed to feel like nothing can take you down and you have everything you need and more
Why do i constantly feel like somethings missing?
belonging is supposed to feel like you belong somewhere and no can take you from that
Why i dont if eel like i belong...anywhere?
im sick of definitons im sick of it all. Of people telling me who to be and what to be no one can define me because im my own person and no one can define me.

wondering why im in pain
everythings driving me insane
cant get over all this damage
thrown into the rubbage
lost and confused
dont know what to do
the ocean carrying me down
never letting go
doomed to life in solitude
all alone in a world of lies
helping me is there demise
dragging down till my empty shell is left
my heart and soul locked forever in
the deep dark blackness of your heart

toxicating

your toxicating
like a drug
running through my veins
flowing steadily to a melody
only you can make.
One thats TOXICATING...

I HATE THIS!!!

i hate how much love and attention ive given to everyone.. i hate it why do i constantly try to help people? i have problems of my own you know!!! why does no one ask how i am doing its blah blah blah about how horrible your life is... dont get me wrong ill stand by you no matter what! but i never get any recognition for what i do around here. what i do for you ppl! i hate it... why can no one come to me and say hey are you ok hows life? everyone thinks that im such a nice popular happy little person... but i have depressions too... i wish that someone would just recognize that..maybe i wouldnt be writing this, maybe i wouldnt be crying harder than before because i feel all alone in this world... just maybe my heart would unfreeze and i would find that longing ive been craving al my life. i have friends i have my family i have everything... well sort of i dont feel like i belong to any one i feel alone... everything is just so... complicated. when i see those cute couples all over school i think of how much i want it. but its never the right guy. im never a girlfriend im always a best friend... what is so unlikable about me? i just wish i could be what everyone wanted... but im too busy being me... maybe i should change, maybe i should bend and twist the way everyone wants me too. then maybe everyone would except me... maybe i would get the same love and attention everyone gives eachother. evryone thought they had me figured out..well heres a new side so realize it and dont judge me just think about for once in your life thats theres someone out there who is hurt and lost and that they need just as much love and attention as everyone deserves. dont just assume they get it! pay attention.

my day... a poem

My day was bright and shiny
my day was going great.
Then i saw you,
my heart skipped a beat then stopped.
Then shattered a thousand times.
I couldn't believe howone person
could ruin my life forever...
I couldnt believe
the pain you brought on me.
So now I have to avoid you..
Which, i would rather not do.
My heart stil craves your love, my ears crave to hear your voice,
but my heart is hurt leaving me confused.
My day was bright and shiny until i fell
in love with you
written for egg by me

one thing

one thing i love about my self ...okay wells theres lots about me i love... anyways one that im so random and i keep ppl thinking... hey its the truth.the other is my self control. if i didnt have any i would have gotten into deep trouble today.. a teacher pissed me off thats it. since i have respect for my elders i didnt say anything maybe to other techies in the class but not to the teacher. you see things werent going so well... she thought she had everything worked out perfectly in her mind and she didnt... things ended up mashed together, ppl stuck behind scenery for plays, and lots of angry teenagers being forced to listen to the teacher who didnt realize what was happening... not a good mix if you ask me, but what ever im calm now and i dont feel like ripping a random persons head off.. its all gravy on the mashed potatoes of life.. peace out homies and keep looking out for randomness

update

ok so im a little late on writing i havent written since friday! well on saturday i went to school to work tech for the play... yep it was pretty awesome.. including the gray paint incident...lol to all those who know what im talking about. on sunday i went to church as usual thats about it. right now im in school so yea... peace out

you...

you make me laugh

you make me cry

you make me love you more

you make happy

your everything to me

i cant live without you

you are my sunshine

my only shed of light

I LOVE YOU

i wish i could say it

to your face...

tech day # 1

today is the first day that im working tech after school. its somewhat more relaxing than being an actor!!! LOL im sitting around doing nothing... but i soon will be. it will be fun. yup...tata for now...

so i like him right???

so i like this guy... but im too scared to tell him because im a chicken... Maybe its just that if he doesnt like me back i dont want the friendship to go away...i would miss him too much. Hes like one of the greatest ppl ive ever known and i dont want to lose him... if i told him and he said he didnt like me back i would be ok.. as long as were still friends. i would get over likeing him that way.. and thats the truth.. cause i bounce back fast!!! LOL so anyways thats my 101 on the drama of my life

LOVE IS LIKE A...

love is like a drug running through your viens

driving you insane

causing you pain.

Love is like a drug you cant enough,

looking for a fix

in any sort of mix.

Love is like a drug you know where to look

but its coursing through your veins

putting you deep deep pain...

love is like a drug

ITS OK

Its ok to cry its okay to feel sad

we all have these feelings

in the long run the ones who have hurt you

the ones who have made you cry

the ones who have betrayed your trust...

they wont matter the one that matter are the ones

who stood by and wiped away your tears. the ones

took away the pain and sorrow and filled your heart with new trust.

Those will be the ones who will matter in the end

the ones that will last in your memory like stars in the sky...

BLaH

today is all about the BLAH!!! i dont really have much to say... today was somewhat of a dramatic day. With friends and all. But i pulled through and everything will be ok...I HOPE!!! LOL so shout to all that know me luv ya!! and see you when ever

ill write it down on paper
ill scribble it out in words
ill scream it to the heavens
and no one will hear a word...

pen and paper

i take the pen to paper
and the words begin to flow
all the thoughts inside my head
the paper is aglow
all my deepest darkest thoughts
written for everyone to see
all my deepest darkest thoughts
finally let me go...

the darkness

The darkness is enclosing me
stealing my last breath
drowning me in evil thoughts
the darkness is encompasing me
eating me alive
swallowing me whole
the darkness is surrounding me
but then i see a light...
the light is accepting me
warming all my thoughts
the light is consuming me
and there you are
leading me into your love

butterfly kisses

butterfly kisses is a song by many artists the song talks about his littel girl growing up. When I first heard this song i thought my dad was the one singing it. I LOVE THIS SONG!!! Plus i just recently found out that my dad first heard this song he cried because he used to give me butterfly kisses when i was little... I love my daddy so much and this is the song i want to be playing when i dance with him at my wedding. You should look it up ILOVE IT!!!

The World Says...

The world says no
but i say yes
the world says stay
but i say no way
the world says stop
but i say go
i will never let the world bring ME down
I will never let the world change me
i will never let the world say
when i can say no

Im i love with him...

In tough times

I'll be here

When tears come

I'll be here

When anger strikes

I'll be here

When you finally realize

I LOVE YOU

I'll be here...

random blog from a friends computer!!!!

Theres a freak in the night to come and grab you.... oops sorry thats been stuck in my head... so im at my friends house and were chilaxin!!! We can get all kinds of crazy!!! (not going into detail) but her blog is simple love poems so go on and check it out...well i believe thats it for now so peace out from the HOTfudgeSUNDAE!

This is ME

Hey so this is my first blog!!! WHATS UP YO!? anyways so now I will post poems and random thoughts so be watching out for the update cause your gonna wanna be in touch when the homie gets FAMOUS you hear? so folloow this blog!